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kangaxx
15-10-04, 01:38
yestarday (14/10) was my birth day, and was the worst day i have in the last 20 years at the least. moust of all of my best friends have forget it, i am sic/ill at house with a severe health problem, due to a economic problem related to a missing card, i pass the day with out a $ with me, and my old cat was diyng with a severe kidney problem, he is in the hospital and i care so much for him. he is like a son to me, i just love him a lot, he was for me a great great companion for the last 14 years. always with me in the good and bad moments. i have thinked a lot on him, and if in any time he beggins now to have a continue severe health problem, and need to go every hour to a pet hospital, away from me, and "forced" to a hard severe tratment all the time, i will decide for eutanasia with out no doubt! i love him like hell, but i will not alow him that he have a "end of life", hard, rude, or not calm at all. i know if i will be forced to do that, with my health problems i will not life so much time too. life is so hard. if was me that had a severe illness that makes me to stay in bed all the time suffering, i will love that some one kill me too, to end my agony. i have only 35 Yo, but i am getting realy tired from this live. some times i feel like a "dinossaur" completly "out of "age", in a wrong time.
bye

larasfrend
15-10-04, 06:49
Hi kangaxx! http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/wave.gif

Happy Birthday! http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/clown.gif Um- don't let it get you down that your friends forgot, maybe it just slipped their mind. I always remind my friends closer to the date, to remind them, I don't expect anyone but my parents to remember my birthday. (It's just the day you were born- it's not the most important day, like a wedding day etc.) I'm sure your friends love you and that it just slipped their minds.

Awwww poor cat :( . Well, I really wish you both the best and tell your friends that you'd like to celebrate when you're better http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/smile.gif (Don't let them know they forgot this time, just say that you're planning on celebrating in a few days or so....) And just enjoy your birthday then, with all your friends! :D

larasfrend
15-10-04, 06:53
Go here! (http://www.tombraiderforums.com/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=22&t=000063) http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/whistle.gif

kangaxx
15-10-04, 07:01
thx mate:)) you are a Gem! http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/tongue.gif
but my worst nightmare is my beloved "old friend"! i go to the hospital again today, and i am afraid i need to mentalized me that maybe it is "his" time...God will know.

Joseph
15-10-04, 10:47
Oh, i'm so sorry to hear this all Kangaxx. :( As LF said, your cat is the most important now, your date of birth has no meaning compared to that. Please understand that cats aged 14 are near the end of their lives, that is normal. You had 14 good years with his company. You just have to go through this. Of course you give him your love and care and the best support now to let the end of his life be as painless as possible.

Don't feel so bad about yourself, with 35 you are so young.
Don't expect your friends' attention for your birthday, YOU take the lead and let them know when you are ready to celebrate it with them, just like LF says. http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/thumb.gif And make it a good day.

TombRaiderfreaky
15-10-04, 12:49
Happy Birthday!!! I really hope you feel better, since today is my birthday (10/15, finally 18) and I would hate it if my day was like that. It's just one of those days. I also hope your cat gets better. And as for friends, well some friends are really bad with birthdays. This year I was suprised that most of my friends remembered mine without me telling them.

But I do hope you feel better and I have a site that might make you smile.

www.hoopsandyoyo.com (http://www.hoopsandyoyo.com)

the people on this site are notorious for cheering people up. ;)

larasfrend
15-10-04, 16:31
Originally posted by joseph:
Oh, i'm so sorry to hear this all Kangaxx. :( As LF said, your cat is the most important now, your date of birth has no meaning compared to that. Please understand that cats aged 14 are near the end of their lives, that is normal. You had 14 good years with his company. You just have to go through this. Of course you give him your love and care and the best support now to let the end of his life be as painless as possible.

Don't feel so bad about yourself, with 35 you are so young.
Don't expect your friends' attention for your birthday, YOU take the lead and let them know when you are ready to celebrate it with them, just like LF says. http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/thumb.gif And make it a good day.Ahem http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/whistle.gif Glad we agree with each other http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/privateeye.gif http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/tongue.gif

Anubis_AF
15-10-04, 16:40
Sorry to hear that.

LARAMANIAC
15-10-04, 21:56
kangaxx, I send you the most huge cuddle I can send via cyber-space. I am so sorry to hear about your beloved friend, but joseph is right your cat is a very old man now. Not that that will make you feel any better about losing him, but he will never be gone from your heart, no-one can take him from there.

I have only known you a short time, but you seem like a very caring person. I wish you health, keep your chin up, cause if you are old at 35 that makes me older at 37 and I'm not old!!!!! :D I know sometimes life is too difficult, believe me I know, but try to talk to your friends, let them know how you are feeling. Talking does you the power of good. Talk here we're listening!! http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/hug.gif

kangaxx
15-10-04, 22:51
thx to all by your great support!, you may not realized how important was that for me, )
my cat is in home again, and he is eating like a crazy, what makes me happy...:)now i juat need to see if he p.i.s.s./urinate normaly, or he will can be in truble again.
THX A LOT TO ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/love4.gif http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/hug.gif http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/grouphug.gif

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larasfrend
16-10-04, 07:26
Awww. You're welcome http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/smile.gif Do you maybe have a photo of your cat? :D

kangaxx
16-10-04, 13:22
no i don't, because i have no scanner or digital mchine, but i will borrow one to show to you soon:) http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/thumb.gif

kangaxx
24-10-04, 03:49
Just to informe you that my old friend will die tomorrow...his kidneys don't have a solution, he have a massive inffection o bouth kidneys, he stop to urinate again for the last 2 days, and i will bring him tomorrow to the Dr's office to be...killed! i am a buddhist, and i belive in a life where we can live with out the need to kill nothing, and this makes me fell bad like hell.
i will miss him a lot. i will miss him like hell, and i just hope he can understend why i need to do this.
i homage him for the 14 years he have stayed with me, he was a faithfull companion, he have helped me a lot in bad times, and im deeply thankfull for that.
just wish to inform you about this, and it is like a public homage to him.
farwell Vivaldi, my beloved cat, and sweet brother. :(

Neteru
24-10-04, 04:10
kangaxx, I am sorry to read of this. I understand very well how hard this is. You are a Buddhist. Then know that is it your intention that is important. You seek to save him from suffering in Samsara. His soul will understand that, and this can only produce positive Karma for you and he both. http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/hug.gif

nerdalicious
24-10-04, 05:00
Awe, poor kitty :(
I'm sorry you are going through this right now, it sounds like a nightmare... :( I'm sorry for your loss.

I know how you are feeling...two months ago I went to get my sister up for school and Bella (my beloved doggie) was laying at the foot of her bed asleep as usual. I got my sister up,dressed and fed and off to school.

I came back and noticed that Bella was not in her usual morning place, in the breakfast nook. I went to my sister's room and she was still on the bed...I thought it weird but left her alone.

I went about cleaning the house and errands around 10:30 am I realized that I hadn't let her out for the morning and that she still hadn't come out of the bedroom. I went in there, saw that she was in the same spot and went over and shook her. I could tell as soon as I touched her, she was gone. I wailed like a baby. I had no one to help me move this 80 lb dog off of the bed...
I was beside myself. I finally had to call the police to get someone to help me. It is so weird not having her!! She was like a member of the family...crying right now...

*hugs*

Thorn
24-10-04, 05:15
Oh I'm so sorry kangaxx! My cat died late August by a car. It was so devastating for me because I lost my best friend. It took a long time for me to realise that I couldn't do anything to prevent it. I took care of him since I was very little so it was very traumatic. If you ever need a friend to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, you've got me. I'll pray for the best of you and your passed cat. My heart is with you all the way kangaxx! http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/hug.gif

kangaxx
24-10-04, 09:52
thx a lot to all your kind words to me, they mean a lot to me at this time.
as a buddhist i understend very well death, what trubles me is he will die by "my command"!that's hurt like hell.
Neteru, i am very pleased to see you have some knoledge of the buddhist philosophy:) you are absolutly correct about the Samsara, i just never have thought in a situation like this before, where i am forced to kill some one because i love him, and to not force him to suffer more.
my deepest regards to all the other friends here that have lost his animal companions too,now better then ever, i fully understend your pain, and how this can hurt us deep in our souls.
we can pass a life thinking on our dearest ones death, and consciencializing that must happen some day, because it is the natural order and balance of life, but when death happens we are never prepared enaugh to deal with it.
i am a little lost of mind, i have cried this night more then in my inteire life, and he is here with me on my legs, i do not know what will happen to me after i see him die. i think i will pass away uncoscience straight to the ground.
God will guide me in this hard time of my life. if i could i will glaldy offer my life so he can survive, but i can't.
thx once more for all your presence here, and for all your kind words dear friends, you are all precious, and i fell honored to have you as my cyber-friends http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/hug.gif http://www.tombraiderforums.com/images/smilies/grouphug.gif
much love for all.

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