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01-04-19, 09:52 | #22532 |
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Thank you very much for your kindness, Mani_Man. Today I feel a bit better, but I'm starting realizing that this toxic relationship might have made me a kind of "dependant" of it. Distractions are good, but maybe not enough. I'll wait for some more days, hoping it gets better.
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01-04-19, 10:36 | #22533 |
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I feel depressed for the silliest reason, and I just can't get myself to feel better.
I hate depression so much. I don't think I have serious depression right now, but I do feel I do have at least "slight depression", maybe. I've moved to a new home, which is better and bigger than the one I lived in. The thing is, I can't cope with the fact that I'm leaving my HOME behind. It feels like I'm losing a person or something, and this is so stupid and dumb. I should feel happy and excited for going to a better house - but I just don't at all. The new house doesn't feel like home to me. It don't feel that "familiar Comfort" that one feels at their house. I'm an intorvert, and I have this stupid personality where I feel safe and comfortable in my little corner, and I feel vulnerable when it changes - so maybe that's why? I've been feeling pain of angst in my chest since I started moving. I've been cleaning up my old house to deliver it to the landlord. Today is the day I'll have to give him the keys. Yesterday was the day I did the final cleaning of the house, I did it sobbing, and crying almost uncontrolably - and I feel stupid. I feel like I'm grieving over something really stupid... I know you guys will find this silly and senseless, but I just wanted to vent out so my chest stops hurting. I'm thankfull I have TR and some amazing virtual friends from it, as well as World of Warcraft, to distract me, and help me heal - along with listening to music. |
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01-04-19, 10:49 | #22535 | |
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And the thing is, because of how attached I am to the old house, it makes it easier to find the all the defects in the new one - deep down, I think it's the back of my mind doing it because of me being currently unable to deal with this change. Later today I'll need to have a lot of self control to not burst into tears when delivering the keys. Wish me luck It's so silly to feel so attached to an "object" |
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01-04-19, 17:15 | #22538 |
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Moving to a new home is definitely hard. When I moved to the house I’m in now, it felt incredibly weird because I had been in the previous house for 5-6 years. But now, it’s got that comfortable feeling that homes have.
So, hang in there. Like Grimaldi said, personalizing it with special things from the other house and making new memories will help. |
01-04-19, 19:36 | #22539 |
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I'm just feeling good since it's my birthday.
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01-04-19, 19:43 | #22540 |
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