How are you feeling (and why)? - Page 2696

**Dennis's Mom** · 19-06-24, 21:26

I'm telling you, the Tidy Cats Breeze is wonderful. No litter track. I actually wash and re-use the pellets. (I have two batches so I rotate.) I don't even scoop. I use dog poop bags to pick out the solids.

malferink · 20-06-24, 11:05

I feel like my life is falling apart. There was a huge fire in my house last weekend which i started myself during psychosis. and I have to leave my house very soon but I have no place to stay. I might just end up on the street. Even worse, my therapists might think it’s not safe for me to live by myself. I hope to hear more next week, different groups of people are gathering who are associated with me so I pray something good comes out of it.

I’m trying my best to put my mind off things, and started an art page. I posted a link in the fan art section for those interested. Nothing commercial, just wanting to share my art with the world, trying to keep sane. Trying to post a drawing at least once a day. Here’s a link for those interested: https://www.instagram.com/malferinkart/

Sorry for the trauma dump but it’s all a bit much atm.

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Originally Posted by Bashar

I am feeling awesome, owed to the fact my Luna is doing very well after surgery. I must thank you all for easing my anxiety before the procedure last week. You are right, it was very speedy and not as invasive as it sounds! The most annoying part of it is her having to wear this very silly donut around her neck to stop her from licking the wound – which looks hilarious. She looks like judge Judy.

To reward her for her resilience, I built her this little assault course over my living room, which she loves! Such a Croft she is.

She spends most of her recovery time snuggling up to me, either in bed or on my desk. There’s not a problem in the world that matters within such moments I must say.

Featuring a photo of smiling me, because I’m so glad she is recovering well, with no complications – and her donut can be removed in a few days where her journey of thriving shall commence!

I hope you’re all having an awesome week. It’s pretty cold where I am for summer, but I have my distractions firmly keeping me content.

I totally missed your cat update. Such cuties. In love with Luna too <3
If I get a new house the first thing I will be doing if I’m doing good mentally is getting a cat. I’m missing having a pet after so long.

**Dennis's Mom** · 20-06-24, 11:41

I'm so sorry to hear this, Malfernik. As you say, it is a lot. Are there orgs that are trying to help you find new housing?

Bashar · 20-06-24, 14:38

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Originally Posted by malferink

I feel like my life is falling apart. There was a huge fire in my house last weekend which i started myself during psychosis. and I have to leave my house very soon but I have no place to stay. I might just end up on the street. Even worse, my therapists might think it’s not safe for me to live by myself. I hope to hear more next week, different groups of people are gathering who are associated with me so I pray something good comes out of it.

I’m trying my best to put my mind off things, and started an art page. I posted a link in the fan art section for those interested. Nothing commercial, just wanting to share my art with the world, trying to keep sane. Trying to post a drawing at least once a day. Here’s a link for those interested: https://www.instagram.com/malferinkart/

Sorry for the trauma dump but it’s all a bit much atm.

I totally missed your cat update. Such cuties. In love with Luna too <3
If I get a new house the first thing I will be doing if I’m doing good mentally is getting a cat. I’m missing having a pet after so long.

Thank you for sharing, malferink - and I am so sorry you're going through so much right now. Have you got friends and family around you to support you through this?

I get the impression you're in the EU? The photo you posted of yourself sometime ago suggest you may be in the Netherlands if I am correct. I am asking because I know it is commonplace within the EU to allocate those struggling as you are to either supported housing or supported independent living programs. I imagine this would be very helpful for your safety as you get to a place of feeling more at peace, and could very well be on the agenda already. It is totally within your rights to ask for that and anything else you may feel more comfortable with so you can feel safe and heal. Do you think you have all the information you need, and confident with who you are talking to?

I cannot imagine how you must be feeling, but I am so glad there are people from the healthcare side (especially if you're in the Netherlands where there is a very decent amount of investment in public healthcare) that can be there for you. I also really hope your family and friends are there.

Luna and I wish you a warm and speedy recovery! Please keep us posted, and if you just wanna talk or blow off some steam - this thread and my DM are always open.

Shirley_Manson · 21-06-24, 07:45

@malfernik, oh my god, that's horrible!
If you want to talk my dm's are open. I really hope things get better for you.

Just don't forget that things can always change for the better. It's most important to have hope.

malferink · 21-06-24, 14:39

Thank you all so much. <3 that’s really sweet of you.

@Bashar, I do live in the Netherlands and healthcare isn’t perfect but compared to other countries it’s pretty good I guess. There’s multiple organisations involved and they’re having a big meeting (government, health care professionals, police, etc.) which I’m not a allowed to attend, but which I will hear more about next Wednesday. I hope some help comes out of it.

I’m a bit scared they think I’m clinically insane and that I’ll be forced to live in an protected environment but I’ve always been a perfectly functioning adult with a nice job. I still have lovely friends and family but they are also having difficulty with everything that has happened.

Gladly I’m still having some relief drawing every day. Thanks for those who started following my page by the way, I appreciate it ❤️

Bashar · 21-06-24, 16:41

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Originally Posted by malferink

Thank you all so much. <3 that’s really sweet of you.

@Bashar, I do live in the Netherlands and healthcare isn’t perfect but compared to other countries it’s pretty good I guess. There’s multiple organisations involved and they’re having a big meeting (government, health care professionals, police, etc.) which I’m not a allowed to attend, but which I will hear more about next Wednesday. I hope some help comes out of it.

I’m a bit scared they think I’m clinically insane and that I’ll be forced to live in an protected environment but I’ve always been a perfectly functioning adult with a nice job. I still have lovely friends and family but they are also having difficulty with everything that has happened.

Gladly I’m still having some relief drawing every day. Thanks for those who started following my page by the way, I appreciate it ❤️

I can't imagine the feeling of anticipating their response. I hope you can focus on getting rest and enjoying your beautiful drawings for now. Don't worry about the whole clinically insane thing. That is quite a rare thing to declare, I have seen it happen with people who are in very advanced stages of conditions like schizophrenia or PTSD and they normally do not function safely at any time, which is clearly not your case. I know this because my best friend struggles with psychotic ideation, and under very stressful conditions with a flat she used to live in dating an absolute psychopath - she experienced a psychotic episode that has resulted in a dangerous incident. She also, despite struggling with a history of psychosis, otherwise functions very productively and well adjusted with a full time job and what not. What was decided after being diagnosed with PTSD was she would live independently with a treatment plan involving medication and therapies with some supervision, though it is not like being in a protected environment - she actually lived with me for a few years, she loved the therapists she was working with and the medication worked for her. Now she is living happily with her boyfriend completely independent!

I hope sharing this gives some ease, but please let us know on Wednesday how you get on. I hope the team supporting you are people you trust, and while understandably it will be challenging for your friends and family - they will just as much want to see you well and thriving and I hope you are feeling this way in your relationship with them. Nothing about this is your fault.

Darkon · 21-06-24, 19:18

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Originally Posted by malferink

Thank you all so much. <3 that’s really sweet of you.

@Bashar, I do live in the Netherlands and healthcare isn’t perfect but compared to other countries it’s pretty good I guess. There’s multiple organisations involved and they’re having a big meeting (government, health care professionals, police, etc.) which I’m not a allowed to attend, but which I will hear more about next Wednesday. I hope some help comes out of it.

I’m a bit scared they think I’m clinically insane and that I’ll be forced to live in an protected environment but I’ve always been a perfectly functioning adult with a nice job. I still have lovely friends and family but they are also having difficulty with everything that has happened.

Gladly I’m still having some relief drawing every day. Thanks for those who started following my page by the way, I appreciate it ❤️

Stay strong, I'm sure everything will go alright

SrDanielPonces · 22-06-24, 10:41

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Originally Posted by charmedangelin

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Anyway I don't think sharing my deep feelings is helpful and I don't think people in a video game forum want trauma dumping so I'm gonna keep my feelings to myself from now on.

yes this is true

**Dennis's Mom** · 22-06-24, 11:33

@malfernik: I think Bashar is giving some good advice.

I think mental health care has come a very long way in their ability to diagnose and treat illness, and of course, wanting to feel better is a big step on the path to improvement.

Just a couple more days till Douglas comes home and we head to Wisconsin in our Airstream for 3 weeks. I'll have all 3 of my chicks under my wing for a couple of days, and I can promise you there's nothing that relaxes you like having all your kids within reach.

19-06-24, 21:26	#26951
Dennis's Mom Moderator Joined: Dec 2008 Posts: 17,742	I'm telling you, the Tidy Cats Breeze is wonderful. No litter track. I actually wash and re-use the pellets. (I have two batches so I rotate.) I don't even scoop. I use dog poop bags to pick out the solids.

20-06-24, 11:41	#26953
Dennis's Mom Moderator Joined: Dec 2008 Posts: 17,742	I'm so sorry to hear this, Malfernik. As you say, it is a lot. Are there orgs that are trying to help you find new housing?

21-06-24, 07:45	#26955
Shirley_Manson Member Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 4,256	@malfernik, oh my god, that's horrible! If you want to talk my dm's are open. I really hope things get better for you. Just don't forget that things can always change for the better. It's most important to have hope.

21-06-24, 14:39	#26956
malferink Member Joined: Jun 2011 Posts: 2,405	Thank you all so much. <3 that’s really sweet of you. @Bashar, I do live in the Netherlands and healthcare isn’t perfect but compared to other countries it’s pretty good I guess. There’s multiple organisations involved and they’re having a big meeting (government, health care professionals, police, etc.) which I’m not a allowed to attend, but which I will hear more about next Wednesday. I hope some help comes out of it. I’m a bit scared they think I’m clinically insane and that I’ll be forced to live in an protected environment but I’ve always been a perfectly functioning adult with a nice job. I still have lovely friends and family but they are also having difficulty with everything that has happened. Gladly I’m still having some relief drawing every day. Thanks for those who started following my page by the way, I appreciate it ❤️

22-06-24, 11:33	#26960
Dennis's Mom Moderator Joined: Dec 2008 Posts: 17,742	@malfernik: I think Bashar is giving some good advice. I think mental health care has come a very long way in their ability to diagnose and treat illness, and of course, wanting to feel better is a big step on the path to improvement. Just a couple more days till Douglas comes home and we head to Wisconsin in our Airstream for 3 weeks. I'll have all 3 of my chicks under my wing for a couple of days, and I can promise you there's nothing that relaxes you like having all your kids within reach.